This week has been doctor free so I had the chance to spend Tuesday in Leland with Mama J after I did a quick morning haircut. We ate lunch, sat on the back porch and talked, enjoyed the landscape and bird houses, and spent time with my nephew Zack. I always have a relaxing time when I go and this time we walked 1 1/2 mile which was good for all of us! I’ve also been able to do several clients and catch up on sleep in 20-30 minute spurts. Today my mom Lila and I went downtown and had lunch at the German restaurant, walked all around Cotton Exchange, bought some more healing teas and some organic treats for the doggies! We talked to the horseman and petted the 2000 pound horse named Henry (yes, 2000 pounds according to the owner) and enjoyed a small serving of salt caramel ice cream, yummy!
You know how sometimes, without any warning a thought will come to you? well that’s what happened to me last night as I was sitting up in bed watching t.v. I have a set of sheets from Select Comfort that get softer and softer each time I wash them, so of course I love these sheets. Anyway, I started thinking about the possibility of becoming bed ridden at some point which led me to think about how often the sheets would need to be changed, which led to thinking about how painful it could be each time I needed to be moved to change the sheets. Unsolicited thoughts!! It’s funny because ordinarily I would have shut down that line of thought but as things continue to change I find that no matter how difficult, I must allow myself to think of the “what ifs” in order to hopefully be prepared. I will never forget how very painful it was after surgery and the nurses moved me to change the sheets, I mean no matter how tender or careful they tried to be it still hurt a great deal and all over. Pain is funny that way, it tells all the other nerves “hey, come join the party” and they do, stupid pain!!
And what about the family members trying to move me and seeing how painful it is? what does that do to them?
As I said, unsolicited thoughts. I let it run it’s course and then reminded myself that one thing is for certain, I do not have to wait and see or guess-God will NEVER give me more than I can handle, and knowing the way I think I will probably be trying to figure out what it is I am suppose to learn as I go through the pain. Notice that I said GO through not STAY in the pain!
When I search for scripture to end my blog I look for what my heart and soul are feeling at the time. I do this because whenever I am in distress it is scripture that comforts me.
PSALM 42 1-8
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