This past week has been busy and exciting for not only me but my family as well. Monday and Tuesday I was blessed with people who needed their hair done, I always enjoy this because these women make me happy and bless my day, actually they bless my life. Wednesday was all about doing mindless things around the house and for myself. I went to buy a blush to replace then one I had used up only to find there were none to be found in the color I wanted. As a last attempt I went to Target where I learned that the line was being discontinued but there were 4 left in my color drastically reduced so I bought all 4, costing less than 1 at regular price. I was ecstatic but found myself wondering if I would be here long enough to use 4 blushes!, I decided that I would just have to live long enough to use them all because no one else uses that shade and it would just be wrong to waste! Now I’ve mentioned my bucket list before but I have a sort of different kind of list. Instead of things to do before I die my list is all about things to live longer for, of course family and friends go without saying but every list must be goal specific. Here are a few I have added: live to see my new grandchild be born in September, see my parents renew their vows in August 2016, see Hannah graduate high school 2017.
Now lets get to Thursday and what we found out (daddy made it) and went back with me for labs. O.K, meds are doing what we want so the dose was increased from 1.2 to 1.3 with 1.4 being the maximum dose allowed. I can continue this drug indefinitely for as long as it works. That being said, the research on this drug for my MBC(Metastatic Breast Cancer) shows extended life is 13.2 months, but nobody checked with God when dealing with me so we will just let God decide when he calls me home and poo-poo on the research!!! Labs showed a slight decrease in my red blood cells that can be remedied by taking iron 3 times a week. The doc offered to have the iron infused and it would last me a year but it would take 4 hours, if you include prep time and flushes it would be more like 5. Now anyone that knows me will understand why I was quick to say NO, I don’t even sleep that long so how in the world would I ever sit still that long?
Thanks to a new drug,prayer by many and unshakable faith by all I am beginning to feel like the B.C (before cancer) me and am able to work out, walk and live most days with pain being a 1-2!! Regardless what comes next the thing that I am most grateful for is my relationship with the Lord. I would like to believe that I would have got to the place of complete dependency on God by myself but the truth (I know myself) is that I could never have felt such a deep connection and need for my savior without the trials he allowed me to receive. It is and has been a gift and I know to some that will sound like I might be taking mind altering drugs! but NOOO, because everything that God allows us to face is in fact a gift. If you do not see this then maybe you need to remember that ALL things work together for the glory of God. Even in our darkest, most pain filled moments, as Christians we must never forget that anything our savior allows us to face can only be looked at as a chance to grow spiritually and to glorify him. I know that it isn’t always easy, that when your heart is breaking from the loss of a loved one or your pain hits an all time high you may feel like asking “why?” if you should face such a moment just pick up Gods book, the answers and comforts are there for you and for me. Don’t forget the 5 minute rule: rant and shout for 5 minutes then praise God for the remainder of the day. I like to recall the words from the hymn “This is the Day” the words remind me that it is in fact HIS day and he has allowed me to be a part of it! Now I call that awesome!!!
1 Corinthians 6 19-20
What! Know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own? For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God’s.
Psalm 50:14
Offer unto God thanksgiving; and pay thy vows unto the most High: And call upon me in the day of trouble: I will deliver thee, and thou shalt glorify me.
PRAISE HIS HOLY NAME!!
Love you and so very proud to be your sister in the Lord!