Not much to tell this week since chemo has been put on hold and radiation doesn’t start until next week. I did go to the bone doctor again and I will be having surgery on my hands for carpal tunnel starting with my right hand. I am scheduling surgery so that I can still do hair, I find joy in doing hair because I get to spend time with very special people and this makes me happy and my day bright.
As this year is quickly coming to an end I have been reflecting on all that has happened over the past 12 months. I didn’t start having pain until April and since then I have had days when I wondered if the pain would ever end, I have been through 5 chemo meds, countless blood draws, minor and major surgeries, hair and eyelash loss, radiation, MRI’s, bone scans and bone survey’s, and a myriad of other things that come with cancer. Any of these things could have broken me but they have not nor will they regardless of what is to come because the one thing that cancer can not do to me is steal my peace because my life (and what happens to it) belongs to God.
The last 12 months have also allowed me to be tested and to grow in ways that I never imagined possible. My world has expanded and my “comfort zone” is now as big as wherever God leads me and I am willing to follow (which I am!) We often hear people say “If I could such and such, I could die a happy person but for me it is true, right now at this very moment I could die a happy person (though I would like to live long enough to see my sister Sheila, she’ll be here the 17th!!) My point is that people need to end this year rethinking what pleases our Lord not ourselves so that when we leave this world we will have done all that is possible to have been a living testimony for Him. If everyone could feel what I and all followers of Christ feel for just one day no one would choose their previous lifestyle.
I wondered why God didn’t just give everyone 24 hours to experience this awesomeness and then I realized that their choice would be made from a feeling and not from a heart change. Our relationship with and commitment to follow Jesus is full time and forever and we will lose friends and even family along the way and though it may hurt it is worth it.
I am blessed to have friends and family that love me and that I love, and parents that support me in everything I do (thank you daddy and ma) and my heart swells and I cry at the very thought that I am a child of God and I never forget how close I came to being lost forever. So to cancer I say “BRING IT ON” you can destroy my body but NEVER my faith or my spirit!!!
I usually end each post with a scripture but I would love to hear what your favorite scripture is, so please send it to me with why it’s special to you.
You are such an inspiration to me and Karen. I admire you for all you stand for and believe in. May God richly bless you and your family!
I have many “favorite” scriptures but when I need strength my go to scripture is one that you know well (we learned it in Bible Study this year) Isiah 41:13, “For I the Lord thy God will hold they right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not: I will help thee.” God is so good! “The Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower.” Psalm 18″2 ~ As I know He is yours! So glad we share the same Father.
my favorite verse is actually all of Psalms 100. We have a Loving, Powerful, Awesome and Holy God that gave His Grace and Mercy to us.
Psalms 100
A Psalm of praise. Make a joyful noise unto the Lord, all ye lands. Serve the Lord with gladness come before His presence with singing. Know that the Lord He is God it is He that hath made us and not we ourselves we are His people and the sheep of his pasture. Enter Into His gates with Thanksgiving and into His courts with praise be thankful unto Him and bless His name for the Lord is good His mercy is everlasting and His truth endureth to all generations.
Thank you God for another day. To praise You and live for You reflecting Your Son Jesus Christ that others my see the Gospel through us and they may come to salvation.
I like that one too though I suspect that my “joyful noise” can be loud at times!
Psalm 102
Perfect, thank you.
Sorry it has taken so long to leave my favorite verse. It is actually a passage of scripture and it contain my favorite verse which is verse 20 and 21. My pray is it will lift you up today!
4 For this reason I kneel before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth derives its name. I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people,to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
20- Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.
That is an awesome scripture, I will mark it and use it for comfort and affirmation.