I wanted to wait until my own doctors visit today to update you all on my sister. Sheila went home the Thursday evening after her surgery without having met 2 criteria: no bowel movement and still had not released gas. She was very concerned and still in a lot of pain, and I suspect a little afraid because the doctor was no longer allowing her to have class A pain meds. So home she went with regular pain management and 5 small incisions. Friday I got a call from a very freaked out sister because she had a low grade fever (100.5) so I called the number provided to her, spoke with a nurse, called sister back with instructions to walk, do breathing exercises and call back if the fever reached 101 or greater. During a 3 hour stretch our biological mother Lila, whom Sheila lives with was out and about so my sister was at home in need of attention and care (unable to reach Lila by text or phone) but left with the responsibility of waiting on our grandmother who also lives with Lila. I wanted my sister to come stay with me until she was better but she seems to think it would be too much on me, which it would not! Man stubbornness really is inherited! Anyway, by Sunday she had met the 2 criteria but was feeling really bad Wednesday, by today she was much better. We are still waiting to get the results from the ovary biopsy and any treatment plan to follow.
O.K, one cancer patient update now for patient #2, that’s me!
Today was labs, bone shot, chemo shots (I just realized that they forgot to flush my port) I realize that I am not the only patient that they have but how hard is it to read the orders and then follow them? Anyway, I will be getting a shingles shot within the next week and my labs are stable which means nothing has changed. This is actually a good thing because it means no growing tumors. I have been having trouble with my lower legs burning so the doc put me on a nerve med and also increased my morphine to 100 mg 3 x daily. I can’t prove it but I think that the nurse who gave me my shots today was trained by Dr. Mengele because it hurt like heck!!! You know what they say, “what doesn’t kill you will make you stronger”, if that’s true I should be Hercules by now. I am mentally and physically desperate to find some type of workout that I can do without hurting myself so I think next week I will hit a yoga studio and have an instructor assist me with form. I want to start riding a bike but first I need to find one, and I like walking too but it’s got to get below 80 or I might melt.
Lately I found myself wondering when it becomes o.k to just say “enough is enough, I’m tired and I want to go home”. When I was diagnosed nearly 2 years ago (can you believe it’s been that long?) I honestly didn’t think I would be here today, I was and am looking forward to being with Jesus but I also remember wanting to be used to glorify God. I know that if I am still here then there must be more for me to do but I don’t know what it is. I am blessed to be around for the birth of my grandson on the 10th of this month and to be here for my sister (I really, really like having her home) and maybe that’s all that God wants me to do right now, to be here for family. I am a very blessed woman so I will try and wait patiently until God moves me forward.
Philippians 4:12
“I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: everywhere and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need.”
I think I finally understand the meaning of that scripture.
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