Last week was extremely busy and I over did it to say the least. On Monday I went to the Zimmer Building with my sister to find out the doctors plan for her chemotherapy. Sheila will have 6 treatments each 3 weeks apart and the side effects will include vomiting and hair loss. The latter will be difficult for her because she has long, pretty hair and although I have done all that I can to prepare her, the truth is that all the side effects still come as a shock. As you all know my grandson was born on the 10th but he is still in the hospital due to morphine addiction which of course came from his mother, she is on morphine to help deal with the pain from a gun shot she received last summer (the bullet is still in her hip). I have been going up to see the baby which the parents are calling R.J but I call Peanut! He is so darn cute and I want to hold and rock him 24/7 but alas I can not and with any luck he will come home today or tomorrow. This week starting Monday was Sheila’s first treatment so I went over and stayed with her until her treatment ended. I think that she did well and with support will get through this to see complete recovery. Sometime around 3;45 a.m (Tuesday) she called me crying and very shook up, the side effects had begun and she was vomiting, scared, and unprepared because the nurses had told her it wouldn’t happen for several days. The next 3 days went the same or should I say the next few early mornings! I am thankful that I can help and comfort her from my own experience and I know that it makes a difference coming from someone that actually knows what it’s like to deal with cancer and the party favors it brings. Sheila is stronger than she realizes and although she isn’t looking forward to more treatments she can face each remaining one knowing that at the end of this journey she can have a future. As for me, my next treatment and office visit I will find out if this new cocktail is working for me. I will start the “Living Strong” program for cancer patients/survivors on the 28th of this month. I am praying that it will help with my physical limitations as well as my emotional state. I fell last week but only skinned my knee (whew!) it could have been worse but as always God had his hand on me. Every single day I am reminded of how blessed I am to have an awesome church family, amazing friends, and my parents who are at every office visit with me. I am especially thankful for my Mama J who loves me, guides me, comforts me, and listens when I need to be heard. She doesn’t have to do any of this and yet without her to lean on I couldn’t face those times when things are just too much for me to handle alone. How amazing is God? 52 years ago when I was born God already knew what would happen to me and he knew that I would need Mama J.
Tomorrow weather permitting, I will get to go horseback riding with Sam and Judy out at the Desperado Ranch. Please keep me in your prayers that I stay on the horse! it’s been nearly 20 years since my bums been in a saddle and although I have a little fear of pain and soreness afterward, I really want to do this. I mean, people in their 80’s ride for goodness sake so I know that I can do this. Wish I had a cowgirl hat!!
Psalm 119: 153-154
Consider mine affliction, and deliver me: for I do not forget thy law. Plead my cause, and deliver me: quicken me according to thy word.
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