Saturday Marty and Justin put up a hammock chair for me and before checking to be certain it was secure I sat down in it and fell 1 1/2 foot onto a hardwood deck and hurt my tailbone. It is just now starting to heal and I may have cracked it but there’s really nothing you can do about a cracked tail bone. Then Lady knocked me down but I was so close to the wall that I was able to catch myself and slide down instead of falling and hitting my tailbone again! Well another week of radiation finished and one more to go, as I was leaving on Monday I reached to un-tuck hair from my glasses and a big chunk came out! I had to laugh because it was so unexpected. Lila offered to drive me for the rest of my appointments and I said yes, it saves me gas and energy plus I think she just wants to spend time together and as long as it doesn’t become stressful for me I will consider it a blessing. As you all know I wrecked my jeep, the insurance company considers it a total loss based on the age and mileage, I was so upset. I was a mess worrying about having to look for another car and being out in the heat which is really hard on my lungs. I texted my friend Sharon and asked if she knew anyone selling a car for around $4000.00, within an hour she replied and said her daughter Savannah had a Lexus SUV 3000 that she would sell to me at a special price (less than she was asking) and I said yes with more gratitude than can be expressed with words. When I got off the phone all I could do was cry and thank God for such good and wonderful friends. They both went with me to return the rental, to DMV for title change and just went way beyond the norm to help me out. I now have reliable transportation and a really cool SUV. The rest of the week my hair continued to jump ship and I continued to fight like an over the hill boxer to save it but in the end on Friday I had a bald spot so big it was best to shave it off. Wednesday around 6 p.m I noticed my feet were swollen so huge that I looked like Fred Flintstone, it freaked me out because I have never swollen like that, it even extended to my knees. The swelling will go down a little and then back up again, the doctor looked and assessed them Friday and wasn’t too concerned but I still am, he also pressed for me to go ahead and bring Hospice in to get all the paperwork done so that everything will be in place when we need them, I agreed and a nurse will be out Monday. So Friday evening out of no where my chin and bottom lip went numb, now that really freaks me out because as of right now it is still numb and all I can think of is STROKE. I have been praying for God to keep his hands on my lungs and now I’m praying that I don’t have a stroke or progress in a negative manner at all. My biggest concern is just living long enough for my policy to mature so that my family doesn’t have a financial burden, it matures October 25 or 26 and I know that’s a long way off but God is the keeper of time and he is also caring for my body so I’ll keep praying and trusting God. It’s been an emotional week for me and I’ve cried more than I would have believed possible, I tend to hold in my emotions and pray but I have found that praying and crying at the same time can be cleansing and relieve a lot of tension I didn’t know I was holding in. I am overwhelmed by the wonderful friends and church family that continue to offer their help with anything I need and I promise to ask if I see that we need it.
2 Corinthians 5: 6-8
Therefore we are always confident, knowing that, whilst we are at home in the body, we are absent from the Lord: (for we walk by faith , not by sight) We are confident, I say, and willing rather to be absent from the body, and to be present with the Lord.
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