Today was a marvelous day! Blessings overflowing and I took advantage of every one offered by Jesus. The past few days were pain filled and emotionally challenging. I couldn’t walk without holding on to something for assistance, everything I tried to do, even the simplest things seemed like trying to move mountains with an ant. I was overcome with the reality that things will only get worse, my spirit was near the breaking point, and then my bother called me to tell me that his treatment was successful!!! How could I think about myself when there was so much to be thankful for. So…I pulled myself out of a darkness that is really nothing more than self pity, yes I said pity. Now I know that I have a right to have sad moments and to cry if need be, but there is always a light at the end of each tunnel but you have to go toward it and not wallow(as I wanted to do yesterday). I admit that I just wanted to break down, be angry, cry until there were no tears left and maybe I should have but I didn’t, I praised God for my brothers great news instead. Also, he has been cigarette free for a whole month and is going to do what he can to keep off of his blood pressure meds!
I’m sure that there will come a day when I will no longer be able to hold back the flood of emotions that I keep a tight rein on and when I do I will share that with you as well. I will need all of gods people praying as I know you already are. It is such a wonderful thing just to know that I am a part of gods people, how cool is that? God and I have the same people!! Anyway, let me tell you what I did today…I mowed the grass, well half the back yard anyway! I told you today was awesome. Now most people would think that mowing the yard is work and it is, but just being able to do that one thing made me feel like the pre-cancer Robyn of 7 months ago. It felt great to get dusty, dirty, sweat drenched and tired. Never thought I would be praising god for an overgrown backyard but I did!
Psalm 63:5 ” My soul shall be satisfied as with marrow and fatness; and my mouth shall praise thee with joyful lips”
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