Had a doctor’s appointment today along with the standard blood work and for reasons that I will tell you soon, having my blood drawn today hurt. I have been experiencing more and more pain in my left leg which I assumed was a tumor pressing on my femur but as it turns out, the blood supply to the leg is almost non existent. Now to add to things my tattoo is not healing because my white cells and hemoglobin are very low and now I have an infection with heat and redness at the tattoo sight making that entire area sensitive (not in any way the tattoo artist’s fault, all mine because I knew I was at risk) but I am a risk taker!!! Dr. M called in a script to solve the problem with my tattoo and e-mailed the x-rays of my hip to my surgeon Dr. Hannem, I am praying that no surgery will be needed. It seems to me that since I began praying and believing in my healing through God’s power(I’ve always known that God could heal me) that Satan has come at me full force but I will not let this diminish my faith or my testimony, it will only make me more determined to do God’s will. As I face each new breakdown in my body my spirit continues to be renewed with each days sunrise and I wondered if I would have appreciated the things that I now do if it were not for my infirmities. Every day people without ailment take the littlest things for granted and often so do those of us with an illness but each day I purpose in my heart not to let one single blessing go unnoticed. The most current example is of course the trouble with my leg, I often say something like “stupid leg” but I also thank God that I have a leg to call stupid! It has never been lost on me just how merciful God has been and continues to be toward me and I believe that that is why I can face this New Normal. As you all know, my parents go to every doctor’s appointment with me and the comfort it gives me just knowing they are in the same room and listening or asking questions I may have forgotten has a calming effect on me. My parents are another example of the blessings God continues to bestow upon me and I am grateful. I wish that I could travel around and testify about Jesus but this is where he wants me for now, however I am traveling to PA next week and I feel something awesome is going to take place while we are there. I want to be used by the Lord but I also feel like I’m trying to make it happen because I want it so much, instead of waiting patiently on the Lord to present me with opportunities. I laugh at myself because patience has never been one of my virtues and because even I know that ya just can’t rush God. Ironically, I think that God is having a good laugh at my expense because He wants me to learn patience and ya really need patience to learn anything!! As soon as I learn the plan for my leg I will update you all but until then please keep Starr, Sheila, R.J and myself in your prayers for safe travels. My love goes out to all of you, have a blessed week.
Matthew 11:29
“Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart.”
Just a reminder that we don’t feel anything that God doesn’t feel with us.
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