This past week has been filled with physical therapy and waiting to begin radiation. This is actually my second week of therapy and progress is slow and sometimes uncomfortable, but a girls gotta do what a girls gotta do. So on I press in the hopes of gaining flexibility and better mobility, toning is an unexpected bonus! I was blessed to discover that when I run out of sessions I can continue to go for 25.00 a month unlimited and use the machines as well as get help from any therapist should I need it. My current therapist will work up a plan for me to follow, I’m so excited because I’ve been praying for a place that would give me what I need and have supervision (I tend to overdo things and push myself beyond safe limits) something that I can’t afford to do these days.
Radiation will start Tuesday, originally the doctor was going to try and do less than 10 treatments but since he viewed the imaging of my tibia he has decided to do 14!! I haven’t had a chance to find out why the increase or to tell him that I can’t do that many. I have to be finished 5 days prior to flying to Chicago which puts me finishing up no later than the 5th of May. I could fly out later but I’m already nervous about going so long without anything in my body to help battle George and his little buddies,I’m ready to go and get this party started. This coming week will be busy as well with radiation, Zometa infusion and therapy.
From the day I was diagnosed I have trusted God for everything even when things seemed hopeless and I was just too tired to take another step. Even now, when my own oncologist has no more answers God had others praying for me and that led me to make the call that will take me to Chicago. God never gets too tired, never sees a closed door, he only sees what He has ahead for me to do. I am blessed because I have a God that loves me and people who never stop praying for me even when I am too scared or too tired to take that next step. My sister Sheila is convinced that C.T.C.A will cure me not just help me. She says that I’ll be going on inspirational tours and encouraging others with cancer, I say cool as long as the message is centered around Gods grace and mercy! because that is what gets me out of bed every day and keeps me going. I use to hear things like: Gods mercy, without him I would be nothing, peace that passes all understanding, power of prayer and many more but I never really understood the meaning, now I do and I wish I could let others that don’t believe feel what I feel for just a moment (not the pain but the peace).
I am planning to take my laptop and blog every day while I’m in Chicago so that all of you can be as much a part of this as possible.
Ephesians 6:12
“For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.”
2 Corinthians 4:8-9
“We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed.”
These particular passages always come to mind whenever it feels like Satan is winning. I have been taught (thank you Rosanne) to break down scripture so that I have a better understanding of it’s meaning and because of that I find even more comfort in what I read. Many times I recall 2 Corinthians from above, and I am once again reminded that God is in control no matter what the world may throw at me!!
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