I have been in a lot of pain the past few days, my left knee and right upper thigh hurt without ceasing and no amount of meds are even taking the edge off now. I live with the heating pad and ice pack, which don’t actually ease the pain but more like numb it until the heat or ice wear off. I am having a hard time walking because of the pain and the fact that my legs feel like they will give out on me any second. I get up every 10 minutes or so in order to keep my back and hips from joining in on the pain party! I continue to do the things that I want to do, or need to do because I know that there will come a time when I have no say in the matter but also because I refuse to just be beat by this thing called cancer.
I remind myself that god never gives us more than we can handle, so when I feel like whining I put on my big girl panties instead and carry on. I could not get through these kind of days if it weren’t for my faith in my savior, and the cards, texts, calls, and prayers from my friends and family. It seems that I always get one(or several!) at the exact time my spirits need to be lifted. Thank you all so much, I love you. I search for scripture that will give me strength and I came across this: 1 Peter 5:8 Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour.
It would be easy to give in to my fears and wide range of emotions, but 1 Peter 5:8 reminds me of how I am to respond and of what the consequences are if I fail to follow instructions. Praise God that all I need to do is search his word for instructions and encouragement.
Can I one visit you this week. Asap?
Before you answer….
I must tell you this request comes with a “Viewer Discretion” Warning…. “The person seeking to visit you breaks out in random crying fits, while short they can be to very intence.”
I finally got this blog. I just read all your blogs…
Whew. !!!!! While our situation are different I was surprised we have so many of the same emotions.. you understand me. Not surprising really since we have the same Daddy… Abba Father.!!
You have been a blessing in my life since I have met you. Your love for God is real. One of my first thoughts I had when I learned of the severity of you cancer was to Thank God for allowing me to know you as you have impacted my life forever.