If only it was that easy but easy does not build character. The past few days and nights have been a challenge for me and my body. It’s easier to deal with pain when it’s in one or two places in your body, but the minute it decides to have a free for all and hit every where, and I do mean every where! it becomes a lot harder to be positive. Pain takes over, walking becomes a chore, meds take too long to work, (if at all) I get cranky, and sometimes I just want to cry. (not something I’m good at). Crying leaves your eyes puffy, your nose running and stuffy all at the same time (how is that even possible?) and always at the end there is that “criers” headache. I mean seriously!! Why would anyone want to go through all of that? Then I ask myself if it’s the pain or the loss of control that causes such a rush of unfamiliar emotions, I guess it doesn’t really matter which it is because God, in his wisdom, is allowing it all. So…I refocus and do the one thing that I do have control over when it comes to my journey with George, I blog.
I’ve never been one of those people that care what others think about me but that’s not to say my feelings can’t be hurt because they can, and have but that’s for another time! My point is that I have always been true to myself even when I wasn’t the best me I could be, so I was surprised to discover this little nugget about myself: I don’t want to be forgotten. ( you know..when I’m dead) as long as I’m alive I’m pretty sure I can make myself known! So that made me wonder why I don’t want to be forgotten and I came up with the one thing that made sense for me, I want to make a difference. People that make a difference are never forgotten, remember Mr. and Mrs. Yarborough? it’s been almost 25 years and they are still impacting my life. I want to leave this world knowing that I said and did the right things and that they mattered. Sounds selfish and a little prideful right? Maybe, I’m not sure but I am sure about this: if I keep my eyes on Jesus and my heart open to what he wants me to know, do or share, then it will be right.
You are an inspiration to me! These past few days, as I get to read/ know George, you have renewed my strength in the Lord. You will never know – When I see your blog, that is the first thing I read because I know it will be good.and something we all need. god bless you for doing this- you do not know how many you are reaching.
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After all we have been through in the past 6 years, I am quite sure you will never be forgotten. I’ve watched your life transform and in the midst of that, watched other people change because of it. I know in my heart that in 25 years, those who know you will be saying “she is still impacting my life today”. I know that will be true of me!
Love You,
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