So, you’re probably asking yourself “Who is this George fellow?” George is my tumor, yes I said tumor. We first became acquainted sometime in October of 2013 when he appeared on my left breast as what I mistook as an adhesion from overworking the chest press machine at the gym. As December rolled around George had grown quite a bit and I began to get concerned. I made a doctors appointment for a complete exam which led to a mammogram which led to an ultra sound which led to a biopsy which takes us to December 2, 2013, C -Day. The phone rang and it was the doctor calling to tell me that I did in fact have cancer, now most people would have fallen apart at the news or at the very least shed a tear, but as you will discover, I don’t handle things like most people. My only fear was how often I would have to deal with needles, I have had a life long fear that causes me such anxiety that I hyperventilate and pass out. 6 months of needles and IV’s have cured me of that!!
Now that you know who George is I will tell you some things about me which I think will help you to understand who I am and how I think. I was saved when I was 12, I was an angry child and an angry adult, probably an angry infant but who can remember back that far? Anyway…I have 2 sons who are now 31 and 34 and a husband I have been with since I was 18!! Also, he is 20 years older than me. Fast forward several years past the age of 12 and I had a major breakdown, mentally, spiritually, emotionally. I hit the tri-fecta of breakdowns but anything worth doing is worth doing right! This eventually led me to a christian counselor who is now and has been my pastor for years. Getting my life and heart right with Jesus was no walk in the park, some people “see the light” and everything falls into place. Not me, I went kicking and screaming the whole way, not because I didn’t want to go but because I had major trust and guilt issues and found it hard to believe that Jesus would even want to forgive me. Seems so long ago that I was so afraid. It has now been 17 years and many mistakes and revelations later but I can tell you with absolute certainty that It Is Well With My Soul. This and only this is why I have never been afraid of or worried about dying. I am saved and am a child of the King.
stay tuned there’s much more to follow.
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