April 29- Refine me Lord.

Today was my third radiation treatment for the tumors pressing on my brain and also the first full day that I started using my oxygen, it has helped a lot.  I will not get any more labs or chemo until all radiation is complete and it took a great load off of my mind (no pun intended!)  I also had a second CT today to see if the tumors in my lungs are getting worse which we suspect they are since my breathing has become more difficult.  There is no surgery for this particular lung issue but the oxygen will help, I have officially become a cancer patient but God is still in control of every aspect of my mind, body and spirit.   I am so thankful to my friends and family for working around my crazy schedule because you are all so important to me and just sharing time with  all of you while working really lifts my spirits and keeps me going, everyone needs to be needed and believe me when I tell you that every prayer you pray on my behalf gives me strength and encouragement.   Side note: my dogs DO NOT know what to think of all the new equipment in the house and it cracks me up!  Also, if there is even a little truth in sugar feeding cancer I am in big trouble because I can’t seem to get enough of it.  I stopped at the store for ice cream and came out with enough junk to put me in a sugar coma but at least my appetite is coming back.    I hope to be able to continue Bible Study if my radiation schedule allows otherwise I will do the work and share with the group VIA Face Time, it’s so important to keep things as normal as possible when circumstances change the control you once had.   I remind myself often that God is refining me and when it seems things are out of my control I hear God reminding me that this is a NEW different that only God can get me through and make me stronger.   I want to live as long as God sees fit but so much more than that I want to live whatever life I have left pleasing God and when I take my last breath I want God to say “Well done my good and faithful servant.”   There will always be times, many times during the day or week when Satan will try to beat you down and steal your joy but only you can allow that tro happen because God will never leave you or forsake you, EVER.

 

1 Peter 4 12-13

“Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened to you: But rejoice in as much as ye are partakers of Christ’s sufferings; that, when his glory shall be revealed, ye may be glad also with exceeding glory.”

 

Can you imagine such an awesome promise?

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